It was time to change the template again. I really liked the one that changed colors, but I needed something new. So here we go.

Ahhhh! My computer is being difficult. The last two times I have tried to post something here, it some how gets erased befor I get to post it. It could have something to do with the fact that I am sitting on my bed, holding the keyboard on my lap or on a pillow, and especially with the broken finger, am likely to hit the wrong key/button. I can't be bothered to retype either thing right now, as my back is getting sore from sitting like this, and so I need to move. I guess anyone will just ahve to talk to me directly to hear about my drunken slumber party or my dream about the dog. Or I will just wait until the motivation strikes me again.

I can't seem to sleep the night without waking up atleaset once to check what time it is. I'm not really sure why. My cousin called me the other day. She wants me to be roomates with her, her fiance', and a freind. My aunt is moving in June, and she wants to rent out the house. My cousin and her fiance' are moving back in, and they wanted to offer me a room there as well, before offering it to someone else. I told her I would probably move in. I will do that in September, if everything goes as they are planning at this point. Move back into the house that I only just moved out of? That I have been dying to move out of since I was 9? Seems crazy, but now it will be different. I will actually be living there as a roommate, instead of someone to be put up with. Instead of a fledgling who hasnt't left home yet. I like my new apartement, I like my landladies, and I'd like to get to know my upstairs neighbor woohoo, but I think that the social aspect of taking my cousin up on the offer will be great. That is the main thing that caused me to say yes from the gitgo. Maybe I will finally get that life I have been thinking of getting for so long now. LOL. Ahhh, it never ceases to amaze me how much I long to conform to the normal social life, and whdat I might do to try and grasp it. But I want friends, I want to go to parties, and I want to go out and have fun. I want to be with people, instead of being the social hermit that I am. As I thought it out more, I also realized that it will ahve a great financial aspect as well, as the rent is less, and most of the utilities will be included. I hope that moving back to that house doesn't cause my hair to start falling out again. I like not having to worry about how much I can catch when I shower. Am I making the right choice? I think so. Worse comes to worse and I will realize that I will never really be included, and I will look for a new apartment again. And its possible that my aunt won't really move, that there won't really be a room for me in September, and that I wdon't really end up moving out of the place I just moved into. Only time will tell.

I can't seem to sleep the night without waking up atleaset once to check what time it is. I'm not really sure why. My cousin called me the other day. She wants me to be roomates with her, her fiance', and a freind. My aunt is moving in June, and she wants to rent out the house. My cousin and her fiance' are moving back in, and they wanted to offer me a room there as well, before offering it to someone else. I told her I would probably move in. I will do that in September, if everything goes as they are planning at this point. Move back into the house that I only just moved out of? That I have been dying to move out of since I was 9? Seems crazy, but now it will be different. I will actually be living there as a roommate, instead of someone to be put up with. Instead of a fledgling who hasnt't left home yet. I like my new apartement, I like my landladies, and I'd like to get to know my upstairs neighbor woohoo, but I think that the social aspect of taking my cousin up on the offer will be great. That is the main thing that caused me to say yes from the gitgo. Maybe I will finally get that life I have been thinking of getting for so long now. LOL. Ahhh, it never ceases to amaze me how much I long to conform to the normal social life, and whdat I might do to try and grasp it. But I want friends, I want to go to parties, and I want to go out and have fun. I want to be with people, instead of being the social hermit that I am. As I thought it out more, I also realized that it will ahve a great financial aspect as well, as the rent is less, and most of the utilities will be included. I hope that moving back to that house doesn't cause my hair to start falling out again. I like not having to worry about how much I can catch when I shower. Am I making the right choice? I think so. Worse comes to worse and I will realize that I will never really be included, and I will look for a new apartment again. And its possible that my aunt won't really move, that there won't really be a room for me in September, and that I wdon't really end up moving out of the place I just moved into. Only time will tell.