Saturday, January 04, 2003
Sometimes writing and thinking about things that I would write is very very tiresome. No, tiresome is not the proper word. The connotation of tiresome is something that is boring, mundane, and repetitive. Thats not exactly what I mean, although, I missed a word and so didn't hit it right on the head there like I wanted too. Anyway, I mean, its more, wearing, erm, exhausting. I have these thoughts, and I want to get them out, and then, when I am in a spot to get them out, I think just about thinking them again, and feeling them again, and oh man I can't breath because it exhausts me so. Who knew thinking randomly could be such a work out. So there are plenty of thoughts that want to come out, and yet, quite frankly, I can't always be bothered. It just drains me too much. Lol I think I need a nap.
Friday, January 03, 2003
Oh yeah, I had thought of more resolutions.
What number am I on?
22. Spend more time reading than watching tv weekly.
23. Eek, to tell my aunt that I am looking for somewhere to move too.
Hrm, I thought I had more than that. I guess I just can't remember them at the moment. Lol was such a hectic day, I am suprised I am not in bed already.
What number am I on?
22. Spend more time reading than watching tv weekly.
23. Eek, to tell my aunt that I am looking for somewhere to move too.
Hrm, I thought I had more than that. I guess I just can't remember them at the moment. Lol was such a hectic day, I am suprised I am not in bed already.
http://www3.sympatico.ca/ci.kerr/wheel.html
A native american kind of zodiac almost.
You have to either read (or just scroll to the bottom) a fair bit to find it but keep looking. I am a crow. It fit me pretty well. Interesting. I find everything that I find out is a "characteristic libra trait" interesting too, as again, more often than not, it fits. Lol. And everyone knows the chinese zodiac, and which animal they are. I am a rooster, i think. Once, in the back of a chinese menu, I found a more indepth thing besides the 2 senctence description you usually see. I think it was all of the bad, and emotional stuff that goes along with whatever sign you are. Wow did it ever fit. Lol.
A native american kind of zodiac almost.
You have to either read (or just scroll to the bottom) a fair bit to find it but keep looking. I am a crow. It fit me pretty well. Interesting. I find everything that I find out is a "characteristic libra trait" interesting too, as again, more often than not, it fits. Lol. And everyone knows the chinese zodiac, and which animal they are. I am a rooster, i think. Once, in the back of a chinese menu, I found a more indepth thing besides the 2 senctence description you usually see. I think it was all of the bad, and emotional stuff that goes along with whatever sign you are. Wow did it ever fit. Lol.
Wednesday, January 01, 2003
Wow back already. I knew I forgot one, I just needed to go check on my aunt and was getting paranoid about the computer crashing, and so I couldn't focus on ways to be a better me very well.
21. To go out somewhere atleast once a week. Besides to the usual places I go simply to exist such as work, the gym, the grocery store. ect. I mean, like out somewhere else, where I have to put on makeup and look purty, and hopefully enjoy myself.
21. To go out somewhere atleast once a week. Besides to the usual places I go simply to exist such as work, the gym, the grocery store. ect. I mean, like out somewhere else, where I have to put on makeup and look purty, and hopefully enjoy myself.
Happy New Year!
Ok so lets here it for resolutions, both ones kept and unkept, and ones that you meant to keep and ones that are doomed to fail right from the word go. I have far too many of them. Here we go.
1a. (Because I already failed it it doesn't count but last week it was going to be my first one) Don't go to the shelter just for this day
( I ended up there around 12:30 at the suggestion of a friend, and then we couldn't talk ourselves out of it, however, going there today helps me keep atleast 2 of my other resolutions)
1B. To Save some $$ this year
2. To take at least one class in something. Possibly like a belly dancing or yoga class, but not entirely positive yet
3. To be a better gym member. (meaning I go 3x's a week more faithfully)
4. To walk atleast 2 days a week, besides going to the gym
5. To flirt unashamedly with atleast 1 guy, and not being completely trashed before trying to flirt.
6. To be better at my job. To work harder, be more dedicated, be better to the animals, the other employees, and the people that we deal with.
7. To find more of a balance in my life.
8. To drop a clothing size before June.
9. To be a better friend, family member, tenant, petowner.
10 (this is a huge one) To be better to myself. Take better care of myself, physically and mentally. On all levels
11. To be neater, more organized, without being too rigid.
12. To take atleast 3 PAID vacation days from work for a break, not for illness or family emergency. (preferrably in a row)
13. To figure myself out a little bit more.
14. To save a little bit more of the world.
15.To not give up!!! To keep fighting my own demons.
16. To really stun and wow just one person. To make them amazed with who I am, who I've become, who I can be.
17. To stick to atleast 4 of these. hahaha
18. To have a better, more exciting, more entertaining New Years Eve.
19. To not give in to being "tired" as much as I do now.
20. To be more open and honest with those that need me to be, while finding a good balance with everyone else.
Ok thats it for now. I may come up with more however. Lol.
Ok so lets here it for resolutions, both ones kept and unkept, and ones that you meant to keep and ones that are doomed to fail right from the word go. I have far too many of them. Here we go.
1a. (Because I already failed it it doesn't count but last week it was going to be my first one) Don't go to the shelter just for this day
( I ended up there around 12:30 at the suggestion of a friend, and then we couldn't talk ourselves out of it, however, going there today helps me keep atleast 2 of my other resolutions)
1B. To Save some $$ this year
2. To take at least one class in something. Possibly like a belly dancing or yoga class, but not entirely positive yet
3. To be a better gym member. (meaning I go 3x's a week more faithfully)
4. To walk atleast 2 days a week, besides going to the gym
5. To flirt unashamedly with atleast 1 guy, and not being completely trashed before trying to flirt.
6. To be better at my job. To work harder, be more dedicated, be better to the animals, the other employees, and the people that we deal with.
7. To find more of a balance in my life.
8. To drop a clothing size before June.
9. To be a better friend, family member, tenant, petowner.
10 (this is a huge one) To be better to myself. Take better care of myself, physically and mentally. On all levels
11. To be neater, more organized, without being too rigid.
12. To take atleast 3 PAID vacation days from work for a break, not for illness or family emergency. (preferrably in a row)
13. To figure myself out a little bit more.
14. To save a little bit more of the world.
15.To not give up!!! To keep fighting my own demons.
16. To really stun and wow just one person. To make them amazed with who I am, who I've become, who I can be.
17. To stick to atleast 4 of these. hahaha
18. To have a better, more exciting, more entertaining New Years Eve.
19. To not give in to being "tired" as much as I do now.
20. To be more open and honest with those that need me to be, while finding a good balance with everyone else.
Ok thats it for now. I may come up with more however. Lol.
Monday, December 30, 2002
A flower quiz. Which flower are you?
This is what I got. Apparently there are only three different kind of flowers. *shrugs* Seems to fit a bit anyway, but it could be one of those things that any one could fit. Wait, or maybe it doesn't fit at all. I'm not really sure any more. I'm so confused. Lol
You're a rose. Yes, you have a few thorns, but lots of beauty. You have the best of both worlds, because you're able to balance the serious issues in your life with fun. You have a healthy sense of humor and you appreciate a good joke, but you're more likely to listen than tell a joke of your own. You could be a middle child.
Social: People like to have you around. You're fun to be with and warm. You have several close friends.
Outlook: You view life realistically, fully aware that there's a mix of good and bad, but you try to make your own luck by doing all that you can to get ahead in the world, working hard, and remaining dedicated to your goals.
Strengths: You're comfortable being you and that gives you confidence. In addition your stability helps you meet your goals.
Challenges: You're most challenged by boredom. Sometimes life seems mundane to you.
Suggestions: Expand your horizons. Explore and try new things. If you do, you will be surprised at what you can accomplish. And by all means, don't forget to look for the beauty in all things--especially in yourself!
This is what I got. Apparently there are only three different kind of flowers. *shrugs* Seems to fit a bit anyway, but it could be one of those things that any one could fit. Wait, or maybe it doesn't fit at all. I'm not really sure any more. I'm so confused. Lol
You're a rose. Yes, you have a few thorns, but lots of beauty. You have the best of both worlds, because you're able to balance the serious issues in your life with fun. You have a healthy sense of humor and you appreciate a good joke, but you're more likely to listen than tell a joke of your own. You could be a middle child.
Social: People like to have you around. You're fun to be with and warm. You have several close friends.
Outlook: You view life realistically, fully aware that there's a mix of good and bad, but you try to make your own luck by doing all that you can to get ahead in the world, working hard, and remaining dedicated to your goals.
Strengths: You're comfortable being you and that gives you confidence. In addition your stability helps you meet your goals.
Challenges: You're most challenged by boredom. Sometimes life seems mundane to you.
Suggestions: Expand your horizons. Explore and try new things. If you do, you will be surprised at what you can accomplish. And by all means, don't forget to look for the beauty in all things--especially in yourself!
Sunday, December 29, 2002
I have to go the gym tomorrow. I'm a little nervous. I was doing so well, and then I didn't go last week, and for the last 2 weeks I have eaten more chocolate and crud than I care to admit. Not so good now. That first work out is going to be a killer. Lol. Oh well. I fell off the horse and I just get right back on right? Right. *nods matter of factly* Besides, it will give me something to do besides the whole lot of nothing that I like to do. I'm so tired. I should just go to bed. Its 6:30 on a sunday night, and I have tomorrow off, and the whole night ahead of me. Sleeping seems like the best plan however. Funny how over the summer, I would drive home, and sit in my car, avoiding coming in the house for as long as possible. Now, I drive home as quickly as I can because I am so tired. And my stupid body has gone on strike on top of it. Plus I sound like a frog when I talk for like the last month or so. I think its almost time to go to the Dr. and figure out what is wrong with me. LOL. I'm afraid of what they will say. hahaha. "Well we can fix whats wrong with you physically, however, as far as the rest of it goes, you shit out of luck" hehehe. Bah. Sometimes I feel old. Its scary. If I feel old now, what am I going to feel like when I am 50? Maybe I just need to decide not to feel old any more. If I believe I am young and beautiful, than other people will believe I am, and therefore I will be right? Too bad I am the hardest person to convince. haha. *sings* I need a nap tra la la la I need a nap tra la la la I want a nice cozy lovey nap tra la la la I don't want to go in my room and be so alone, tra la la la la la.
there thats my song. How was it?
there thats my song. How was it?
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