Merry Christmas!
I was always sad because I felt that we had no traditions in my family. I always wanted a traditional family, both in who/how we were, and where we had certain practices that we followed ever single year. Well, we were never traditional in how our family was put together, never resembling the classic nuclear family, but we did have a number of little traditions.
My older cousin and I used to clean out her closet, and sleep in it every christmas eve. The closet was 2x5 I think. We were so cramped! Whenever we woke up, usually around 3 am, LOL, we would grab our stockings and run back to our room to open them. We would usually end up eating about half the freaking candy and falling back to sleep. I had the same stocking that I use every year, handmade from a family friend. My mom had a matching one. I still have it. On christmas eve, after dinner, and after my cousin and I had done the dishes, we were allowed to pick out one present from under the tree. Then our moms would go get a present out of their rooms for us to open. Every year they gave us pajamas on christmas eve. Usually matching ones that were a different color. LOL Christmas morning my cousin and I would pass out all the presents, after everything was opened, we'd get dressed and have breakfast.
Our traditions weren't much, but they were there. And it wasn't until this year that I realized, we had had our last family christmas. I mean, we try, but I always go into work, my mom and brother live out of state, and my older cousin moved to a new house. I got my mom a pair of pajamas this year. I opened the presents that she left at my house for me. In one of the boxes, was a matching pair of pajamas! Lol. We picked out the same ones for each other.
Monday, December 23, 2002
This is for all the lonely people, waiting for life to pass them by, Don't give up ...
Ok, so I don't actually know the words, and thats about all I can bring up in my memory at the moment, although now I have it playing over and over again in my head. Hrm.
There are so many people who are lonely. I mean, like enough people that if lonliness were an illness I believe it would be to pandemic porportions. So why do we all continue to stay lonely? If I walked into a crouded bar and announced that I would talk to anyone who was as lonely as I was, chances are, there would be half a dozen people who wanted to come talk. However, I would never do that, and if I did, I bet no one would actually come over and talk, even if they are lonely. Sure we are all looking for true love and whatnot, but why not make everyone who is not THE ONE friends along the way? If we surround ourselves with friends, we won't be so hurting for that perfect person, won't be as lonely along the way. And yet, we all continue in our mundane lives, ignoring and allowing so so many people to pass through without any real affect. How many people do we talk to every day, that we have no real signifigance too? People that we may see time and again, and yet, sometimes never even say hi. I went through one stage in the pit of my loneliness where I would wake up between 2-5 am every morning and just lay there and cry. I couldn't sleep through the night. I walked around with my sweatshirt hood up, sunglasses on, and my headphones on. No one ever talked to me. It was my own fault. I looked like I would beat them up if they did. Talk about making yourself unapproachable. I wouldn't accept a ride from people, people that I knew and worked with, even if it was raining. They thought I didn't like them.
So many lonely people, and yet, hardly ever do any of us reach out to the others. There should be a lonely people support group. They would meet once a week, for an hour or two, and just hang out, order pizza, maybe even take trips to the movies or whatnot. I bet a lot of people would find good friends or even a kindred spirit or two. It wouldn't carry the stigma of a dating service or personal adds, because thats not what it would be about. It would just be a group of other people who are lonely, maybe bored, maybe just looking for something to do and wanting to make a new friend or two. Thats all.
Ok, so I don't actually know the words, and thats about all I can bring up in my memory at the moment, although now I have it playing over and over again in my head. Hrm.
There are so many people who are lonely. I mean, like enough people that if lonliness were an illness I believe it would be to pandemic porportions. So why do we all continue to stay lonely? If I walked into a crouded bar and announced that I would talk to anyone who was as lonely as I was, chances are, there would be half a dozen people who wanted to come talk. However, I would never do that, and if I did, I bet no one would actually come over and talk, even if they are lonely. Sure we are all looking for true love and whatnot, but why not make everyone who is not THE ONE friends along the way? If we surround ourselves with friends, we won't be so hurting for that perfect person, won't be as lonely along the way. And yet, we all continue in our mundane lives, ignoring and allowing so so many people to pass through without any real affect. How many people do we talk to every day, that we have no real signifigance too? People that we may see time and again, and yet, sometimes never even say hi. I went through one stage in the pit of my loneliness where I would wake up between 2-5 am every morning and just lay there and cry. I couldn't sleep through the night. I walked around with my sweatshirt hood up, sunglasses on, and my headphones on. No one ever talked to me. It was my own fault. I looked like I would beat them up if they did. Talk about making yourself unapproachable. I wouldn't accept a ride from people, people that I knew and worked with, even if it was raining. They thought I didn't like them.
So many lonely people, and yet, hardly ever do any of us reach out to the others. There should be a lonely people support group. They would meet once a week, for an hour or two, and just hang out, order pizza, maybe even take trips to the movies or whatnot. I bet a lot of people would find good friends or even a kindred spirit or two. It wouldn't carry the stigma of a dating service or personal adds, because thats not what it would be about. It would just be a group of other people who are lonely, maybe bored, maybe just looking for something to do and wanting to make a new friend or two. Thats all.
Sunday, December 22, 2002
What's YOUR sexual fetish?
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Look look look! I'm not a dead cold fish! Woohoo!!!
Ok so its a different test than the freaking fish test was, but there was an equivilant answer, and I didn't get it! And I didn't even have to lie. Rofl
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