Thursday, December 23, 2004
Bah Humbug
It turns out that my family is not getting together for christmas. My mom is not coming down, my aunt is working. I am not driving up to my moms house, my car is being pesky. Now my plans are to go to work, and hang out there for a few hours, come back home, and go back to sleep. Maybe tomorrow I might stop at the liquor store and pick up some mudslide mix, and make myself some frozen mudslides. LOL, oiy joy. I don't know that I will ever be part of a famiy again, as I seriously doubt I will ever end up married or having children. I will probably go over to my neighbors for dinner on Christmas, I don't know if I want to be pathetic and beg love from someone elses family, or be pathetic and spend the holiday completely alone with my cat. I will just have to see how I feel.
A lost chance
I do not know my father. I may have known him as a baby, but I am not even sure of that. I have no pictures, nothing of him, from him. I found out today, he has died recently. There is not even a funeral. I do not even know his last name. I often thought that maybe some day I would look for him, maybe meet him, but now, I have lost the chance. My aunt believes he died of cancer, and he had apparently been ill for a while. She said he had been living with "Donna", and that "RJ" wasn't even speaking to him any more. RJ is my older half brother, who I have never met. I only know one Donna, and I don't think he would have been staying with her. All my aunt said was that he had no funeral, and he didn't have anything, he was not a good person. What a thing to tell me huh? Now I don't know how to feel. I want some answers, but I don't want to actually ask. Is it better not to know?
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
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